It Is Finished

 

This didn't need to happen.

I went to far yesterday and knew that disaster was ahead. A few moments ago he told me he just wanted to be friends. After where we have gone, there just is no way. I don't want to be friends and told him to lose my number. I also deleted the chat and everything I have on him.

I expected this. All of this didn't need to happen, but you know what? I had been praying for a way out and it sucks that it went as far as it did before I could get out.

It just solidifies some things I have thought about myself that I wont share on here, but God knows.

I thank God that I am out. He gave me breath for another day and I need to get my focus back to Him, where it needs to be. I will get my focus back. I cannot allow anyone to get in between ever again.

How do I feel at this moment? I'm not heart broken. I'm not angry. I'm not depressed or at least I don't think I am. I am shaking internally. I am numb. But I will be alright. As long as I have breath and there is today, I will be alright. And I thank God for that.