Beginning and Ending

 Happy Sabbath,

Good week and a good day.  I have been investing for almost two weeks and although my input has been small, I have made more in a few days than a year with three times as much sitting in an account gaining at common savings interest rates. I am going to give this a serious try and continue investing. I have to try.  

I am thankful for this even being put on my mind to do. In doing so I took some time to check my accounts and balances.  I did multiple checks for different things this week and there were some good things and bad things that occurred. For one, I had created what I thought would be my primary budget for the year.  I went to do one final check when I saw several major transactions were made that hour and it turned out, my son decided he wanted to purchase some robucks for the Roblox game without my permission.  I headed to the bank to try to fix the situation temporarily until I could get Roblox to refund the money.  I went to a branch I had never been to and I put money in the drawer following the directions.  The atm stole my money and didn't give me a receipt or other option. It just sucked up the money and said that my transaction could not be completed at this time.  I pulled over and called the main number (it was Sunday morning) and they gave me a provisional credit and would open an investigation. I'm sure during their play back of the camera they saw and probably heard some colorful language I'm not proud of.  I was refunded by Roblox but they deleted the account so all funds I had authorized for decorating the avatar were lost.  I have since made a new character and beefed up security so my son cannot make additional purchases.  I have another character I play with so I can meet up with him in the Metaverse.

I am thankful I have gone 2 weeks without making any purchases for myself.  I am trying to save money as I am in for it for tax time.  I thought I had saved enough but I clearly did not and I don't have alot of time to prepare.  I am cutting my grocery budget and eating what I have.  I do have a lot and can go likely into the next month without really needing to make any more purchases.  

My mother came to watch my son Friday as I had a dental appointment.  I had a heart to heart with her and was informed more about her and my dad's situation which is more dire than I realized.  If anything, my heart hurts for her.  I love my dad but know how flawed he is, how flawed we all are.  I was the one years back when she wanted to leave him I was the one shouting at her telling her to pack her things and let's go mom!  I moved out with her but she decided against what others were telling her and went back. She is staying in the same house because of complicated financials.  There is no more love there and has not been for a long time.  But this is life. This is how people are and the things she shared, very disheartening.  What she said was enough to motivate me to go purchase a new mattress for the guest room. I want to prepare it so if she needs to just get away, she will have a comfortable bed to sleep on when she comes to my house.  The mattress will be here I believe Thursday.

I now think on the turns my life took and even on some of the terrible things I know about other family members.  Perhaps someone spoke a curse against my dad for the treacherous moves he made in the past and it went on to affect his children, me being one of them. There was something my mother shared that I cannot utter on here as I promised not to let that out.  It's just sad.  It's awfully sad.  I pray my mother has happiness and joy return to her.  My dad is messed up but I pray that the Lord gets his attention and takes control of him.  Changes his heart.  I do not pray for reconcilation between them.  Too much damage has been done.  I pray the Lord's will be done in both of their lives whatever direction that may be.

There's other stuff but I can try to share that next week with hopefully some better updates. For beginnings or continuation of good things, my son's birthday is tomorrow.  He will be 9 years old.  I look forward to celebrating it and going somewhere fun with him.  NO matter how hard things are and how cruel people are, God is good and staying with Him, any grey day can turn into sunshine on cloud nine.

Have a blessed and wonderful Sabbath day and week.


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