Staycation Time???

Happy Sabbath

I am thankful to be home and able to rest today. I was supposed to be on a trip with my family but ended up canceling a few hours before.  My son became a pathfinder and we attended the most beautiful service and concert. I had received notification from Mt mother that instead of going on the trip as soon as pull up she said we were to leave at 3am and recommended I come at that time. I had already packed everything and was thrown by that. Then she remembered she wanted me to park my car in their driveway and so she asked that we come over after the service ended. I agreed.

I drove over and my son had an attitude. I also was annoyed but tried to fight through it. Then things fell apart when I saw the space that was reserved for us in the suv. Every single year we pack four bags. He has 2 bags (one for meds and his machine and the other his clothing) and I have two bags (my clothing and a bag for his and my electronics). I also had a small jackery generator I would use for our computers during the ride. I don't know what plane my mom was on but she managed to eliminate even space for the bags. I was peeved with this and knew it was also time for my monthly. I needed space and I could not imagine tolerating a tight ride for 10-14 hrs and not being able to stretch my legs or have any space. I struggled with it and decided that we would not go because I knew I would blow a gasket riding down there. I also knew that even though mt mom said we would be doing work on the house down there, every time I've gone, I was not permitted to do anything. 

I sat at the table thinking about the trip and went on to pay a bill. Then my mother came down confused why I was not upstairs and she gave me a Christmas gift which she insisted I open that evening.  I'm glad that I did. It was $1000. I thanked her and returned home with my son. My monthly started horribly at 3am, the very time we were supposed to be headed out on the road for the trip.   I then decided to go to the bank on Monday and when I tried putting the 1k in, the bank rejected 100 and accepted the rest. I was confused so I did another transaction and it accepted the remaining 100. I went home with the intention of moving all funds to one of my high interest savings accounts when I received a notification that I would have auto pay for another card on Saturday.  When I looked at my accounts I realized that I gave too high of an amount to pay one bill. If I left for vacation,  I would have been in the negative for my main checking account (at least that's the numbers read that morning). I am thankful that I didn't go because of that. I'm thankful for the alerts so I kept the 1k in my account as protection for the week.

I talked more about Walmart with my mother Saturday night and after hearing her feedback, made the decision to not return to them. It's going to be tough. When I had Walmart, I didn't have to wonder if I had or didn't have enough in my account.  My relationship has improved with my son since stopping in October. I am getting more rest. I am not frayed like I was daily. I don't have to slap myself to stay awake while driving on the highway.

I received a notification today from them asking me what I planned to do and I don't plan on responding.  It's so not like me to just quit like this. I have to though.

I am thankful for these last three months. I am thankful that I could spend the whole of the holidays with my family. I am thankful for the help I am getting through my family by the Lord's hand. I am thankful for how this year is drawing to a close.

God saw the mistakes I was about to make and helped me out truly and I am so thankful.