Be Humble

I quit my part time officially today. It was hard because I know the Lord gave me this job. I didn't want to leave. It gave me financial security for the last 4 years and its hard to let go of that comfort you get from having those extra funds.On the flip side, I didn't want to go back because of bad decisions I made back in 2021. I sinned and there were consequences to my choices, my actions. The Lord knows me and what my issues are. If I were to go back, I would have to deal with so much pressure.  From unkind people talking about what they think they heard or know about me to being harassed by people who I would not cross in my regular daily life. He gave me a wonderful opportunity and I went and messed things up. God used my son to help me step back to get a better view and handle on things. God is my provider. He is the One who makes my life, everything good possible. God made this opportunity come to out of no where when I was in my greatest need. He's done it before and if I commit to walking faithfully with Him, He can do it again. I looked for a verse at random while praying about what I should do and I came to Isaiah 27:10. It says, Isaiah 27:10 Yet the defenced city shall be desolate, and the habitation forsaken, and left like a wilderness: there shall the calf feed, and there shall he lie down, and consume the branches thereof. "

An interpretation of it via Google search said,

Symbol of God's care
The scene of calves grazing and lying down in a desolate city can be seen as a symbol of God's care and provision, even in times of judgment. It can also be a reminder of the hope and renewal that God offers. 

I have done wrong and wasted the time and money the Lord allowed me opportunity to make. If I continue without seeking Him and committing myself fully, my city, my home, the things that I've worked for will be destroyed. It may be that I have nothing left after all of the time I put out there, but if I humble myself like the calves, like livestock, like sheep, I can trust that He will take care of me. I need to humble myself.  That verse is for me and I know it is because of the chapter number and verse number.

I need to humble myself like a calf. I need to lie down and take a break and accept the Lord's provisions. I am not self made. God made me and if He tells me to take a break from this hustle life, then a break I must take.