Happy Sabbath and last Sabbath of the year.
It's been a good week. No complaints. No bad surprises. It's all good. I was able to sit back in the congregation and enjoy the service. I did play for a little bit in the morning and was able to have a great class with my Primary students even though most of them came late. I saw faces I haven't seen for a while which was nice and enjoyed a lovely song by a sister who always does it right. She has such a beautiful contralto voice and I was happy to assist her with a speaker for the background.
Now I'm home and my son is creating a Bible commic series that I think is going to be a hit. I watched some of his Bible story videos and plan to watch some more.
No complaints. This is a good end to a differently different year and I look forward to seeing and making new great things happen for 2025.
What we aren't changing, we are choosing. I'm choosing to change for the better and have a better closer walk with Christ.
Saturday, December 28, 2024
Monday, December 23, 2024
Be Humble
I quit my part time officially today. It was hard because I know the Lord gave me this job. I didn't want to leave. It gave me financial security for the last 4 years and its hard to let go of that comfort you get from having those extra funds.On the flip side, I didn't want to go back because of bad decisions I made back in 2021. I sinned and there were consequences to my choices, my actions. The Lord knows me and what my issues are. If I were to go back, I would have to deal with so much pressure. From unkind people talking about what they think they heard or know about me to being harassed by people who I would not cross in my regular daily life. He gave me a wonderful opportunity and I went and messed things up. God used my son to help me step back to get a better view and handle on things. God is my provider. He is the One who makes my life, everything good possible. God made this opportunity come to out of no where when I was in my greatest need. He's done it before and if I commit to walking faithfully with Him, He can do it again. I looked for a verse at random while praying about what I should do and I came to Isaiah 27:10. It says, Isaiah 27:10 Yet the defenced city shall be desolate, and the habitation forsaken, and left like a wilderness: there shall the calf feed, and there shall he lie down, and consume the branches thereof. "
An interpretation of it via Google search said,
Symbol of God's care
The scene of calves grazing and lying down in a desolate city can be seen as a symbol of God's care and provision, even in times of judgment. It can also be a reminder of the hope and renewal that God offers.
I have done wrong and wasted the time and money the Lord allowed me opportunity to make. If I continue without seeking Him and committing myself fully, my city, my home, the things that I've worked for will be destroyed. It may be that I have nothing left after all of the time I put out there, but if I humble myself like the calves, like livestock, like sheep, I can trust that He will take care of me. I need to humble myself. That verse is for me and I know it is because of the chapter number and verse number.
I need to humble myself like a calf. I need to lie down and take a break and accept the Lord's provisions. I am not self made. God made me and if He tells me to take a break from this hustle life, then a break I must take.
An interpretation of it via Google search said,
Symbol of God's care
The scene of calves grazing and lying down in a desolate city can be seen as a symbol of God's care and provision, even in times of judgment. It can also be a reminder of the hope and renewal that God offers.
I have done wrong and wasted the time and money the Lord allowed me opportunity to make. If I continue without seeking Him and committing myself fully, my city, my home, the things that I've worked for will be destroyed. It may be that I have nothing left after all of the time I put out there, but if I humble myself like the calves, like livestock, like sheep, I can trust that He will take care of me. I need to humble myself. That verse is for me and I know it is because of the chapter number and verse number.
I need to humble myself like a calf. I need to lie down and take a break and accept the Lord's provisions. I am not self made. God made me and if He tells me to take a break from this hustle life, then a break I must take.
Saturday, December 21, 2024
Staycation Time???
Happy Sabbath
I am thankful to be home and able to rest today. I was supposed to be on a trip with my family but ended up canceling a few hours before. My son became a pathfinder and we attended the most beautiful service and concert. I had received notification from Mt mother that instead of going on the trip as soon as pull up she said we were to leave at 3am and recommended I come at that time. I had already packed everything and was thrown by that. Then she remembered she wanted me to park my car in their driveway and so she asked that we come over after the service ended. I agreed.
I drove over and my son had an attitude. I also was annoyed but tried to fight through it. Then things fell apart when I saw the space that was reserved for us in the suv. Every single year we pack four bags. He has 2 bags (one for meds and his machine and the other his clothing) and I have two bags (my clothing and a bag for his and my electronics). I also had a small jackery generator I would use for our computers during the ride. I don't know what plane my mom was on but she managed to eliminate even space for the bags. I was peeved with this and knew it was also time for my monthly. I needed space and I could not imagine tolerating a tight ride for 10-14 hrs and not being able to stretch my legs or have any space. I struggled with it and decided that we would not go because I knew I would blow a gasket riding down there. I also knew that even though mt mom said we would be doing work on the house down there, every time I've gone, I was not permitted to do anything.
I sat at the table thinking about the trip and went on to pay a bill. Then my mother came down confused why I was not upstairs and she gave me a Christmas gift which she insisted I open that evening. I'm glad that I did. It was $1000. I thanked her and returned home with my son. My monthly started horribly at 3am, the very time we were supposed to be headed out on the road for the trip. I then decided to go to the bank on Monday and when I tried putting the 1k in, the bank rejected 100 and accepted the rest. I was confused so I did another transaction and it accepted the remaining 100. I went home with the intention of moving all funds to one of my high interest savings accounts when I received a notification that I would have auto pay for another card on Saturday. When I looked at my accounts I realized that I gave too high of an amount to pay one bill. If I left for vacation, I would have been in the negative for my main checking account (at least that's the numbers read that morning). I am thankful that I didn't go because of that. I'm thankful for the alerts so I kept the 1k in my account as protection for the week.
I talked more about Walmart with my mother Saturday night and after hearing her feedback, made the decision to not return to them. It's going to be tough. When I had Walmart, I didn't have to wonder if I had or didn't have enough in my account. My relationship has improved with my son since stopping in October. I am getting more rest. I am not frayed like I was daily. I don't have to slap myself to stay awake while driving on the highway.
I received a notification today from them asking me what I planned to do and I don't plan on responding. It's so not like me to just quit like this. I have to though.
I am thankful for these last three months. I am thankful that I could spend the whole of the holidays with my family. I am thankful for the help I am getting through my family by the Lord's hand. I am thankful for how this year is drawing to a close.
God saw the mistakes I was about to make and helped me out truly and I am so thankful.
I am thankful to be home and able to rest today. I was supposed to be on a trip with my family but ended up canceling a few hours before. My son became a pathfinder and we attended the most beautiful service and concert. I had received notification from Mt mother that instead of going on the trip as soon as pull up she said we were to leave at 3am and recommended I come at that time. I had already packed everything and was thrown by that. Then she remembered she wanted me to park my car in their driveway and so she asked that we come over after the service ended. I agreed.
I drove over and my son had an attitude. I also was annoyed but tried to fight through it. Then things fell apart when I saw the space that was reserved for us in the suv. Every single year we pack four bags. He has 2 bags (one for meds and his machine and the other his clothing) and I have two bags (my clothing and a bag for his and my electronics). I also had a small jackery generator I would use for our computers during the ride. I don't know what plane my mom was on but she managed to eliminate even space for the bags. I was peeved with this and knew it was also time for my monthly. I needed space and I could not imagine tolerating a tight ride for 10-14 hrs and not being able to stretch my legs or have any space. I struggled with it and decided that we would not go because I knew I would blow a gasket riding down there. I also knew that even though mt mom said we would be doing work on the house down there, every time I've gone, I was not permitted to do anything.
I sat at the table thinking about the trip and went on to pay a bill. Then my mother came down confused why I was not upstairs and she gave me a Christmas gift which she insisted I open that evening. I'm glad that I did. It was $1000. I thanked her and returned home with my son. My monthly started horribly at 3am, the very time we were supposed to be headed out on the road for the trip. I then decided to go to the bank on Monday and when I tried putting the 1k in, the bank rejected 100 and accepted the rest. I was confused so I did another transaction and it accepted the remaining 100. I went home with the intention of moving all funds to one of my high interest savings accounts when I received a notification that I would have auto pay for another card on Saturday. When I looked at my accounts I realized that I gave too high of an amount to pay one bill. If I left for vacation, I would have been in the negative for my main checking account (at least that's the numbers read that morning). I am thankful that I didn't go because of that. I'm thankful for the alerts so I kept the 1k in my account as protection for the week.
I talked more about Walmart with my mother Saturday night and after hearing her feedback, made the decision to not return to them. It's going to be tough. When I had Walmart, I didn't have to wonder if I had or didn't have enough in my account. My relationship has improved with my son since stopping in October. I am getting more rest. I am not frayed like I was daily. I don't have to slap myself to stay awake while driving on the highway.
I received a notification today from them asking me what I planned to do and I don't plan on responding. It's so not like me to just quit like this. I have to though.
I am thankful for these last three months. I am thankful that I could spend the whole of the holidays with my family. I am thankful for the help I am getting through my family by the Lord's hand. I am thankful for how this year is drawing to a close.
God saw the mistakes I was about to make and helped me out truly and I am so thankful.
Saturday, December 14, 2024
Vacation Time
Happy Sabbath and good afternoon
It's such a good day. The children led out a fantastic program and the script was done by one of our own. She did a play previously and it was really good and funny as well (she really has a gift for play writing). I was happy to see my son participate in it and actually listen to what it was about. Later today he will become a pathfinder which is exciting. And then tonight we will go on vacation. I have everything except my phone charger and his electronics packed up. I look forward to a relaxing vacation and change of climate. I am off work all of next week through Christmas. It's going to be a nice break. God is good.
It's such a good day. The children led out a fantastic program and the script was done by one of our own. She did a play previously and it was really good and funny as well (she really has a gift for play writing). I was happy to see my son participate in it and actually listen to what it was about. Later today he will become a pathfinder which is exciting. And then tonight we will go on vacation. I have everything except my phone charger and his electronics packed up. I look forward to a relaxing vacation and change of climate. I am off work all of next week through Christmas. It's going to be a nice break. God is good.
Saturday, December 7, 2024
My Son
Happy Sabbath
I had a good week and a good day at church today. I was looking at some photos this morning and cane across something that makes me think I judged a situation the wrong way. I have to talk the Lord about it to know for sure. I always screenshot receipts and have a trail when I spend money. I had two screenshots but there was nothing with a dollar amount attached to it. I think that perhaps the enemy saw an opportunity and tried to confuse me with the timing of it all and it is possible the harm set up for me was not by the person I thought all this time. But I also can't rule them out.Only the Lord knows and so I give it to Him.
I am home with my son and am enjoying this lovely Sabbath afternoon making Bible comics with him. He looked through my old portfolio and was inspired to start a new series and work on a series I created when I was 15 and haven't touched in all these years. He wants to be an artist and I love seeing him put his skills to use and glorifying the Lord at the same time. I will always encourage it and he's pretty good too. I just wish he'd take up a love for making music and get on some of the instruments I have in the living room. We have a baby grand, four clarinets, a flute, alto saxophone, snare drum, trumpet, violins, guitars and other instruments around the house and if I can get my hands on a bassoon or tenor sax, I'd feel almost complete. I love music. I love making music and I want this to be passed down to generations in my family. He is so talented and I want him to get even more skills and use them for the Lord.
God is good. I am thankful for my son, for my family. I am thankful for the skills that we have and that they are growing. He is working in my child's life and that's all I could ever ask for.
I had a good week and a good day at church today. I was looking at some photos this morning and cane across something that makes me think I judged a situation the wrong way. I have to talk the Lord about it to know for sure. I always screenshot receipts and have a trail when I spend money. I had two screenshots but there was nothing with a dollar amount attached to it. I think that perhaps the enemy saw an opportunity and tried to confuse me with the timing of it all and it is possible the harm set up for me was not by the person I thought all this time. But I also can't rule them out.Only the Lord knows and so I give it to Him.
I am home with my son and am enjoying this lovely Sabbath afternoon making Bible comics with him. He looked through my old portfolio and was inspired to start a new series and work on a series I created when I was 15 and haven't touched in all these years. He wants to be an artist and I love seeing him put his skills to use and glorifying the Lord at the same time. I will always encourage it and he's pretty good too. I just wish he'd take up a love for making music and get on some of the instruments I have in the living room. We have a baby grand, four clarinets, a flute, alto saxophone, snare drum, trumpet, violins, guitars and other instruments around the house and if I can get my hands on a bassoon or tenor sax, I'd feel almost complete. I love music. I love making music and I want this to be passed down to generations in my family. He is so talented and I want him to get even more skills and use them for the Lord.
God is good. I am thankful for my son, for my family. I am thankful for the skills that we have and that they are growing. He is working in my child's life and that's all I could ever ask for.
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