Waiting

 Happy Sabbath :)

Today we had communion and I had a good day at church.  I'm expecting my son and parents to return from their project either tomorrow or Monday so I'm looking forward to that as well.  This is the second time my son has been away for such a long period of time.  A few years back, he went away with them for the summer and I joined them for the final week to work on the house.  I heard that they were able to get the master bedroom fixed up and they moved most of those construction materials out of there.  I can't wait to see it when I go down later this year.  Since my son is being homeschooled, he can go down more frequently and I connect with him to do the lessons via zoom and face time.  I want him back in person as we need to do more hands on work such as with writing and picking up materials from our local library again.  He has a lot of math he needs to complete and I've been focusing my efforts to make sure we are making progress on those lessons and he is understanding everything a 5th grader needs to in those areas.  I was always a person who said I could not do math and I even failed math in 7th grade because I was too timid to reach out to the teacher when I knew I needed help.  I missed 2 lessons because I was sick and stayed home and when I returned, I just couldn't catch up.  I am surprising myself as I go through the math I thought I could not do.  They require way too much of these young children but I am encouraged because I am now able to understand what they are asking and am able to help coach him through each lesson.  Anything I don't know, there is a video or diagram with examples to show each process and I'm making up my own short cuts to teach him along the way.  Who knows, I might be able to do calculus with him if we continue going like we have.  Maybe it's not too late for me to be an engineer...joking.  

I can't wait for him to return so we can have longer and more varied lessons.  I want to do field trips to supplement our social studies and science segments and I want to get him out exploring in the real world and less in the Roblox games and YouTube space.  

Tomorrow I want to take a test.  I have not been studying like I should have.  I paid for a program to help me get certified as a loan signing agent and my access to everything will be cut off by next month so I have to do this.  I went through the modules but I need to go back through them again before taking the exam for certification.  I've been so busy with so much else but I need to stop procrastinating.    As I type, I have my stamp, ink, notary book and other materials sitting in their packaging before me on my dresser.  I bought those things back in 2022 and have done absolutely nothing with them. I don't even remember what my id number is but I know I spent a good chunk of change for that training program.  I cannot allow it to expire without at least trying to see if I can get certified.  If I fail, then so be it.  But I have to try.  I wish I had one job that paid everything that I'm earning right now but even more so, I wish I made about 20 grand more, then I would have everything covered.  I spend too much.  I have to cut back.  I don't take advantage of all the opportunities at my main job that I could such as getting mileage funds every month.  They made the process so annoying and tedious that I all together stopped submitting requests for mileage reimbursement for about 2 years now.  I usually forget to send in requests for cell phone reimbursement but I am trying to get better. I only need to send in a copy of my phone bill and they give me a little change back.  I need to look for other options.  Nothing lasts for ever.  My part time job, I'm surprised I've been at it for this long...over 4 years now who would have thought.  Without the part time, I would not be able to save really anything.  My son would not have the foods and things he wants.  I would be on a beans and rice diet which I'm considering going back to anyway because I really want to save more money.  He wants braces. I want a permanent gazebo with hard top.  I need to make provisions for more serious vehicle repairs and perhaps a new vehicle purchase.  I need my roof redone and flashing fixed on my chimney.  I want to fix the central air system and get some good landscaping done by professionals.  

I've been out here doing the repairs myself and it's hard.  There's a lot that I want to do and not enough money to go around to do those things.  I'll give it to God.  I'm going to prepare for my nap now.  I work hard for the money and I have to work my part time tonight so I need to get ready for that. I'll spend some time talking to the Lord.  I hope that you have a great weekend, Sabbath and new week as well.