When I am Weak

 Happy Sabbath

When I am weak, He is strong.  I need to and will put my trust in Him.  This week has been a good week.  I was able to take off Thursday and Friday and add on more time to get better rest.  A meeting I dreaded earlier this week did not turn into disaster and for that I am thankful.  Yes, one director did some reaching but it's okay, I made it through is what matters.  An investigation is occuring now because of some shady moves my client's family made and I have tried hoped for the best and tried to stay optimistic.  I know she is going through a lot but if the suspicions come out to be true, there is not much I can do.  The same for her in me saying when we know to do right and we do not do it, it applies to me as well.  

Yes, I needed this mini break from work.  I hope to go ice skating tomorrow with my son. Need to check on my pinky toe to make sure I didn't really damage it. I hit it on a fabric box I store my socks inside of one of the cubbies of my kallax system.  That was yesterday and my pinky toe still hurts.  My son has never been ice skating before but for me, I had a semester in college learning to ice skate.  I finished the course being able to go from point A to point B without falling down. Nothing really fancy beyond stopping and attempting a basic slow spin or two.  At this age, I probably shouldn't attempt but I saw the opportunity on group on and want to give my son amazing experiences to look back to and say, "I did all these amazing things in my childhood and I was not deprived of anything that I needed."

I am thankful for the funds to make my son's bed experience much more luxurious.  His bed is so nice that now I have to go out and do the same because it is so comfortable and nice.  Every bed needs to have at least 3 comforter options and I am setting about that.

Service was good today.  Good to see people pop on and turn on cameras I have not seen in a while.  Now to the guy. I pray that I can be a positive influence in the lives of everyone I encounter.  That situation is still trouble for me.  I am praying for him as well as my aunt who is in rehab after breaking her femur.  She is in her late 70's. My dad will be turning 80 later this month and need to keep him in prayer as well.  But yeah, the guy, that guy.  He must stay at work or find a new job.  I am not leaving my employer, that's good money.  He should find a new job. He needs more experience at this stage in his life.  I am open to meeting with him out in public, going to the park or movie theatre.  I am open to having a lunch date.  Why am I being so open?  Why is he being so persistent? What is it going to take for this to stop?  I hope that I can be a positive influence.  I hope that the Lord will turn our hearts the way they need to be because I know for this, I'm not in the best place.  He hinted he would not be at work tonight and I hope that is true.  I can focus on my work and get my mind off of him.  I don't need him in my field of vision.  I don't need to hear the sound of his voice.  I need that all to be silenced.  All the what ifs I passed through and there were many what ifs I turned down.  Why am I weak now?  

Pray for me.