Just a Closer Walk With Thee

Happy Sabbath

I’m in the final hour of Sabbath and just want to praise God for a great week and day today.

I was upset with what happened last week but spoke with the people who were involved and changed my mind about stepping down.  I went to work this week and came to Wednesday to be surprised with an all day training.  I was not happy about it because I wanted to go home early and sleep up for work that night and what upset me more was that the trainer decided to select me to sit up in front.  They had tables with people facing each other and I ended up in the front front facing everyone in the training at my agency.  I am very anxious  and self conscious when I am in positions like this and seeing people look at me made me feel even worse.  I thought I was texting my sister about the ordeal and then realized I accidentally texted my church group how I was feeling in the moment.  You would think people would be at work, busy cleaning or doing other things in their life but of course several church mothers were immediately on the Whatsapp looking to see the newest text and read mine.  I’m new to Whatsapp so I didn’t know how to delete anything and braced myself as I saw another church member typing a response. 

They prayed for me and within 3 minutes I would say of me sending that text, my anxiety was gone.  I could sit comfortably and look at people and answer questions for the next 6 hours of the training in that spot.  That can only be God.  I have social anxiety and I usually never do well in situations like that.  I felt like a whole new person.   Satan tried to send people my way to pick at me and shake my nerves but it didn’t work that day.

I thank the Lord for my first paycheck from my part time job.  It was very welcome and well needed.  I was able to give back to the Lord what I owe Him and it feels good to do so.  I have enough I believe for savings every month and other things I need. 

Yesterday I had two dreams back to back about someone dying. I woke up crying and was not sure who it was who passed away, I’m sure they were for a reason which is why I’m mentioning them now. 

Today I woke up well rested and got to church on time.  I was the first person there for at least a half hour and decided to go with my son to set up for church.  I came to find out later that the person who usually sets up is sick today and stayed home.  Another church sister was not present and her three older children came in and one told me that their mom lost the key to her van so she couldn’t come to church with the rest of the kids.  They might come at 12pm and that would be too late.  I decided after setting up that I would go pick up three more of her children and after lunch/service, I took two of her other children to nursing home and them dropped them off at home. The other children I transported were taken home by someone else. 

At the nursing home a woman was sitting close to me and she told me she used to play piano.  She was shy and afraid to come up in front of everyone but decided today was the day she would come up and play What a Friend We have In Jesus.  And she asked me to play one of her favorite songs, Just a Closer Walk With Thee of which I love and have highlighted in a second hymnal I typically carry with me, I just never played it publically until today. 

It was a lot of overcoming happening this week.  A lot and it’s all thanks to God.  I have to go to work tonight and Sabbath is almost over so I will post this.  I thank the Lord for a good week and for what He is and has brought me through.