God is Good

Happy Saturday. 

Sabbath ended a few minutes ago and I’m just getting home.  I had a heart to heart with my mother and little sister after a fantastic Sabbath day at church. 

No matter what happens, I know Jesus is alive and well and He cares for me.  It’s hard for my mother.  It’s hard for my family, my clients. It’s hard for me. We are all dealing with struggles and tough situations but we have to keep looking up. 

My work week was packed full of difficulty but I forged ahead and will continue to try my best with what I have.  This is the time of year when things are supposed to quiet down at work; when I’m worried about not being productive enough on my job but some of my clients on my caseload now have some really challenging situations and I’m not sure how to work through them. 

I was told if I did ABC, I would get a 1k bonus which I desperately need.  Now I was told others and myself have to complete a second quarter before they pay out for the first.  I opened another credit card and put a major expense I needed to make on it.  I mean my wheel was going to fall off my car what other choice did I have? I’m still trying to forge ahead. 

God did not open that door I was praying for this week.  Just because He didn’t doesn’t mean I should turn my back on Him.   I know what He has brought me through and I want to and am still going to hold on.

My mother shared about the difficulty she has with my dad every day.  Anyone who knows about narcissim would understand what I’m talking about.  My sister is planning on getting married and he is trying to meddle in that and won’t give his blessing.  Everyone is less than in his eyes, all suitors, friends, family, and even us. 

 I love my dad, but he is a narc and makes everyone miserable around him after too long of an exposure.  If my mother ever wants to move in with me, all she has to do is say the word. She would not have to worry about steps or an accessible bathroom.  I want to help her with the house in Carolina. If the house was fixed up, she would be down there permanently. 

It’s been a hard week but I want to thank the Lord that I made it to the end. I thank Him for my family, my church family, my employer and the kind of hearts they have (I am proud to be an employee there and associated with such wonderful people).  I thank Him that my son had a good week at school and that he could stay with my parents today during service at church (he would have been a nightmare if I brought him today).  I thank Him for signs of life. I put a huge avocado seed in soil and it has sprung forth four branches which perhaps one day will grow a healthy tree.  I thank Him for my piano, for music, for my house, for my car still running, and for everything He has blessed me with.  God is good.