Saturday, February 4, 2017

God Provides


Happy Sabbath 

I am having a wonderful day today and had a good week too. 

I had a good talk with Hope (person I mentioned the other week) and she shared with me that her dad was serious in trying to have her husband deported.  Please pray for Hope, her husband, children and her parents.  We both have families that are similar.  As I may have mentioned last week, I have several narcissistic family members and it has done so much good for me to move myself away from them to regain my own peace of mind and confidence and to be in a quieter environment where I can focus on God. From what she has shared with me, she is dealing with what I used to deal with.  She has an impossible situation but there is only one Person who can handle the impossible and I know that He cares for her. 

As much as I try to separate myself, I am dependent on my family for childcare.  I also benefit with auto insurance and another narcissistic sibling has given me access to free internet.  If I made more money, I would choose to put my son in the YMCA day care program for before and after school.  I can pay for the auto insurance, but it seems like there is always a problem coming up and the money I expect to be there for one thing goes for another.  I live in an apartment that is about 1/3 more expensive than others I could easily afford in poorer neighborhoods.  I chose this apartment thinking I could send my son to the school system in the neighboring town, for child care, because of the neighborhood and cuteness of the town itself, and because there were no other places in this entire county that offered the space and amenities at the price that this place offered.  If I had my way, I would not have to ask my parents for anything, but God has it this way for a reason. 

On Monday, I drove off with the car my older sister gave my parents when she bought her dream car. I went to work after getting cleared by the doctor on the Friday prior and did my best to get everything rescheduled and lined up for the day.  I left the office with my forms for my meetings and when I arrived to the location where the car was, I went to open the door.  Now when I drove the car last year (I was waiting for my black ford to get fixed after a lady rear ended me after a turn) I couldn’t get the drivers side door to open with the key and didn’t bother.  I would open the other side and cross through to unlock the door. 

When I went over to my parent’s house on Friday, my mother showed me how to unlock the drivers side door (you have to put the key all the way, pull it out part way, jimmy it this way and that and then turn).  I did it on Friday with no problems after she showed me.  I did it on Monday morning when I took my son over prior to going to work.  When it was time for me to get in the car to go on my appointments to the same area I had the car accident, I put the key in and did as I did before.  I didn’t use too much force and continued to jimmy it expecting it to open. 

I twisted half of the key off in the lock. 

I ended up having to call my dad who was about 23 miles away to bring me the back up key.  I stood out there for 45 minutes waiting for my dad to come and it started to snow (wasn’t listed in the forecast, but okay).  It stopped before he came though.
Of course when he brought the key, he had to put me down as he usually does and I expected this abuse.  I said I would pay for a replacement key and I’m sure it will be about $200 since it’s a car key. 

I went on to my appointments and at the last place, all of a sudden snow was coming down very heavy and fast. I of course did not have what I needed to clear the car since I had followed a partly sunny but cold day forecast.  I went to the car and cleared it with some gloves and was able to head on home.

I just thank the Lord that I was able to have a car to complete Monday, Tuesday and all of my appointments and get home without any more issues.  I called the lady’s insurance company on Friday to see if they received the police report yet and they had not.  They were quick to volunteer-tell me that they were not going to pay for any car rentals until they could establish liability, but God’s good because He provided me with the blue little car.  The blue little car I couldn’t stand but works and was available when I most needed it. 

I have high credit card debt on my main card and prior to the accident I had decided on a plan to pay it off and wanted not to use it.  I planned on using my tax return to pay off the debt.  I have a high credit line on another unused card and low line on another but I was not able to find those two cards, my emergency card connected to my savings accounts or my credit union card for some reason (I searched practically every where).  No one took money off of the cards and so far I only requested two to be replaced.  If I wanted to put a rental on one of the cards, I wouldn’t have had it available any way, so the blue car truly is a blessing because I would have been shocked to my soul to go to a rental place find discover those cards were not in my wallet.  I remember taking them out of the wallet because I didn’t want to get robbed by someone on the street and they take everything I have. I also remember items falling out of my wallet when I was in the tow truck riding to my mechanic’s shop, but I picked up those items and searched the floor of the truck.  I don’t know where I put the cards but it’s okay because as I said I’m getting replacements. 

I went to church today (didn’t go last week) and was glad that I was able to go.  My son did somewhat well during Sabbath school and after children’s story, he decided he was going to run all over the place (pulpit included) and do some new things during the service. I am thankful for the people who stepped in to help keep him safe and in a proper place. 

I watched a video posted on They Overcame By and was surprised how much this lady’s testimony mirrored my own experience.  She went to school for nursing and was able to get a great job, but what I connected with most was her challenge with the cars and desire to get her son into an academy.  She too is a single mother and the way God blessed her encourages me.  I wish I had the money to send my son to an Adventist academy and it very well may be God’s will and in his future that he will be able to go.  Since first visiting the church I’m going to now, I learned about a near by academy and looked into pricing for a year’s tuition.  Last Sabbath, I listened to young people singing from an Adventist academy in British Columbia.  I’m not a doctor, lawyer, or nurse who can send my child to an academy or boarding school.  I’m on entry level social work salary so if my son ends up going to one of these schools, I know it’s no one but God who is able to make it happen. 

If I can’t get the car fixed for what ever they offer, I want to get a new vehicle.  I do have expensive used car dreams of an Audi, BMW, Mercedes.  One of my savings accounts is called Audi.  I like Ford but have been looking at more and more BMW’s on the road lately.  I find it funny that the woman who shared her testimony on that youtube channel said she was provided a BMW from family and ended up going with Ford (the BMW broke down and she was able to get the Ford with no money down after starting her nursing job at a nearby hospital).  God provided students to watch her infant son.  God provided free housing for her when she had no place in the area to live and promise of a place to stay near the school had fallen through even after she came with all of her belongings and child in the car. 

If you have time today, go visit their channel because people need to know that Jesus is alive and He is really doing wonderful things in the lives of people today. 


God knows what I need and what I want and I trust that He will do and give what is best for my life. 

So my testimony this week is that God provided me a car to use for work, kept me safe while out on the road amongst crazy aggressive drivers, that we were able to go to church and that I am able to see another bright sun shiny day. 

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