Come O Holy Spirit

This is a post from 9/10/16 that i some how did not publish:


I had some interesting and awesome things I wanted to share about my week.  On Saturday night last week after Sabbath ended.  I was watching some YouTube as I from time to time do and got the thought to check in on someone I used to be subscribed to but left when she started going the esoteric route of spirituality.  Prior to becoming a Christian myself, I was living the life of a wiccan so hearing what she said she was doing went against my new found values with Jesus and I had to bounce on up out of there.  She was one of the earlier natural hair vloggers that I would watch for inspiration but I couldn’t stomach the spiritualism and unsubscribed.   Well last week, I peeked on over and she talked about a new hair journey.  I laughed to myself on it because I also knew how often she would change her hair and would not commit to a natural hair style or wig for very long.  She always liked changing her look and sometimes made drastic changes to her natural hair, leading to regret and a delayed journey to a new goal but always looking cute nonetheless.  I will say God led me to look at her again and click a second and what I thought final video.  She had a video posted in June talking about Jesus. 

Now this was the first time she mentioned him in any video of all the videos I’ve watch from her.  When I discovered youtube in 2009 and used it as a support for my natural hair journey which kicked off early 2008, I tended to watch everything and I mean EVERYTHING from any natural hair vlogger out there to get as much knowledge I could about providing better care for my hair.  This video she posted now talked about her not expecting Jesus to have anything to do with her plans, with her life, but she invited Him in her life and He changed it. 

All  you have to do is invite Him in and man, you will have an awesome experience.  I knew when she said she invited Him in, I had to hear what happened and I was so happy for her.  Her channel is taren916 if you are interested in seeing a true experience with Jesus. 

So after I watched the video, I prayed and went to bed. I want more of the Holy Spirit to be in my life.  I got up on Sunday morning and decided that my son and I should go to the park before it got too hot outside.  We went to the park and it was a beautiful time.  We went to the swings and slides and as I sat on the swings, this beautiful butterfly (huge and colorful but not a monarch I don’t think) came and flew circles around us and between us.  I had hoped it would land on me, but it didn’t.  Soon stinging insects were thinking it was time to come out so we moved across the field and my son chased away unintentionally large geese pasturing there.  We climbed the one large hill that used to be steeper and jagged but smoothed out over the years of me living in and around the town the park was in and as we climbed, grasshoppers jumped and flew a short distance before us.  When we reached the top of the hill, a few of the geese flew overhead us and went on to land in the small manmade lake a short distance from the hill.  We saw a hawk or falcon family.  We saw other butterflies, ants, squirrels and beautiful creatures and it was a wonderful teaching moment for my son.  I used to go to the beach and park to spend more time with God and I would like to do that more often.  The butterfly moment and really experiencing all of that was extra special. 

I went to sleep that night and woke up around 3:00am.  I looked at my phone for the time and laid there talking to God.  Now my son has his own bed but lately he has been sleeping in mine and I need to work on getting him to sleep in his own especially because he is in pre-school.   Suddenly he stirred (I did not move or say anything) and he got up and went to his bed.  I waited to see if this was a fluke and waited a good 5 minutes and went to check on him.  He went to his bed and was fast asleep WITHOUT GRABBING HIS FAVORITE BLANKIE.  I brought the blankie to him and went back to my bed and thought more on why he even got up and went to sleep. 

Tuesday, I drove him to his first day back to school.  He is not supposed to be getting the bus because of budget cuts and the address of pick up being too close to the school. He’s not supposed to be even going to that district, but that is another story for another time.  Later that day, I learned that he would be getting the bus and my parents won’t have to drive to pick him up each day.

Wednesday, I had successful meetings for two of my clients. 

Thursday was my one year anniversary working at my agency.  I finished up with a meeting that left me feeling some kind of way (satan attacks when he can) and I drove on an interstate at a good speed thinking to myself that I wanted to see my car, and the progress the autobody shop was making on it.  Earlier that week, the mechanic said it would be soon but didn’t tell me how much it could cost or when.  I thought it was still at the shop that I dropped it off at.    I drove with that in mind as cars raced past me on my left and soon I came to a major slow down.  I was driving my sister’s old car (last week I mentioned she got a new car and her old car was given to my parents to use, my name added on the insurance). Sitting in stopped traffic in the dead of summer in that car made me sweat bullets because that AC is only a fan with hot air and nothing more. I then received a call from the mechanic out of the blue and he told me that my car would be ready today and that he would text me the other shop address.  If he had not called, I would have went to the first shop I dropped the car off at.  I still didn’t know how much it would cost even after I asked him again.  I called my mom and told her my plans and where I was and she said I should pick up my dad and we go over there when I got to the house.   I roasted in the car  on the phone and then watched about 4-5 police cars and a fire truck drive ahead to what would be an accident involving 5-6 cars, and a tractor trailer.  I saw another tractor trailer drifting ahead of the bunch and seeming to be included in the scramble.  A man was sitting in the middle lane with an policeman applying pressure to a head wound. One car was in a ditch and the rest were either beat up in the front, rear ended, or had serious side damage.  I drove past and didn’t see other cars coming. I then received a random text from my sister asking about her car and I let her know all that transpired.  I proceeded as planned and saw my car looking gorgeous (her name is Suki).  Thinking about how I named this car I have to be careful not to idolize the things I use.  The rear was completely replaced and my mechanic fixed above and beyond.  I went to the bank and took out money for two new tires for another car and the $4200 he quoted plus an additional 300 to prevent me from having to use my credit card that I needed to pay off. I returned to learn he tacked on an additional 264 to the total and so I had enough to pay him in cash.  He didn’t have change to make $36 so he gave me back $40 and I drove off with my car looking brand spanking new.  I felt like a king, like a boss in that car, so much better. 

To top it off, I received my last package in the mail and took all of this in celebration of my one year anniversary at work. 

Friday (yesterday) was difficult though.  I had great days this week and then satan came in to make me feel dumb and worthless.  I felt so disconnected and didn’t do as well as I would have liked at this meeting I had, but pressed on any how.  Even though I had some good ideas and God helped me to form those good ideas, I just kept missing the mark.  I am my biggest critic and usually when I feel like someone is looking at me a certain way or judging me, I’m right.  I was hit with this throughout the week by other people too, but pressed on regardless.  Friday was low, but right before sunset, I checked my accounts and realized I had enough money to pay off the nearly $3000 debt I racked up on one of my main credit cards, so I paid it off in full.  Since coming into this year, I planned to keep my credit cards clear and it was only during July into August that I racked up a huge amount with no plan to pay any of it off.  I have a 6500 credit line, 5000 credit line and 2000 credit line to my disposal and all of my cards at this time are clear.  I wanted to improve my credit score so I could qualify for buying a home, but instead, I rented and used much of what I saved in my home account to buy brand new furniture for the space.  Checking, my score is now 768 (went down 4 points on Equifax) probably because of that delay in paying the 3k.  I want to get it up to 800 again or higher. 

So this was my week.  God is too good to me.  I think about how my week started after viewing Taren’s video and my prayers to God about my life afterward.  I hope Taren continues to move forward with Jesus and tell more about the wonderful things she is seeing Him do in hers and other people’s lives.  Testimony encourages us to keep trying, keep moving, keep living.  It renews our hope and faith in God and His purpose for us.  Jeremiah 29:11.  God is a living God.  Jesus is here for us and the Holy Spirit works directly with us while we walk the face of the earth in the short time that we have.  We all need Jesus and as she said that the Holy Spirit spoke through an acquaintance telling her that Jesus was looking for her, He is looking for all of us.  God wants all of us to be with Him in His kingdom.  We need to open our hearts and never stop searching for Him and walk with Him.  It starts with searching and wanting something better and only Jesus can provide that. 

God is turning my mess around for me.  I don’t know if I will be in this apartment a year from now.  I don’t know if I will have another job, another car wreck, gain or lose 20 lbs, or feel the same way I feel about people and life today, but I do know that God can do anything and change it for my good if it is according to His will. 

God is awesome and He is right on time always.