October

Good morning and Happy Sabbath
I am awake earlier than I planned to be.  I am troubled but I will still and always give glory to God.

I am thankful that a team has been assembled to support my child. I put out a request thinking that I would just be linked up with a therapist for him but we have been given a case manager for him, a resource person for me, and a therapist who is actually trained or seems to be. My child was to go to NC with my parents for two weeks and but he became violent in route so they had to return 3 hrs later. When I went to go take my 2hr nap to prepare for my parttime job overnight he decided he was not only going to go outside without my permission to ride his scooter but he attempted to drive the suv.

My child is 11.

I am now seeking a LOA for the part time because I cannot trust what he will do. I do have supervision for the full time and if I'm lacking I can just use PTO, but stopping my part time puts me in a tight spot. I hope to return in January as I get things figured out for him. The absence of the part time puts a twisting foot on my wallet. I have enjoyed these almost 5 years of freedom to spend on the things that we wanted.  I rarely would worry about prices; I knew I could afford things and shopped and moved about without stress.

Without that stream of money, we will have an extremely tight budget and I am trying to help him understand the changes.

I had tried in the past calling around to get additional help for him and I got no where. I am thankful that with the help of the case manager,  my son had his first psych appointment two days later following my outreach. He started a med which I know many of my clients have used. I haven't heard of too many issues for them on it. He did complain of a headache and said he felt sick which nausea is one of the side effects.  I don't want him to be on psychotropics but after everything that has happened this week and over the years, I have to see if it will help. 

I am thankful that currently there are enough funds to sustain us. If necessary I can cut off the YMCA membership.  I was able to reduce my phone bill by almost half and I terminated a quarterly extermination service that kept the wasps and crickets at bay. I was told they would waive the cancelation fee of $251 and I hope they will.  I had been paying them nearly $70 monthly for over a year and only called them once (which was this week) to have a treatment before time. I wanted a final indoor treatment to make sure crickets don't breech this fall.

I am thankful for an easier way to submit info to get reimbursed at work for mileage and more money is being paid back for cellphone reimbursement.  It was so tedious and annoying that I let go years of submitting that info because it would yield so little yet take up so much of my time. I was making bank with the part time so I didn't care I wasn't getting the extra funds for mileage or cellphone.  The person responsible for processing all of that also was losing documentation and letting things sit on her desk. When I saw I didn't get paid for 2 months of mileage I decided to give up. There is a new person running it and the process is soo much better now.  Those checks will definitely help ease things up.

I am thankful.  I have managed to save alot of money. I can still homeschool my child and live in this home we have. Even though I'm stressed about it, I still have an opportunity to return to my part time. I don't want to use the pto I accrued with them because if I do, I might psych myself out of returning.  I also want it to be there for an emergency.  I am thankful that my parents are still trying to help even after what happened this week.


There is alot to be thankful for. I'm going to prepare for service today. God is good, even when it's the month I dislike the most: October. 

Happy Sabbath