Christ and Only Christ

 Happy Sabbath

Some things happened this week that got me feeling down.  My cousin is dealing with a terrible situation which I cannot speak much on this platform. I pray for restoration and reconnection to be made in all of that and for the health and safety of the victim to be secured.  

My other cousin who has cancer needs so much and is slowly getting services/supports in place.  For what is working I thank God for it, but her situation still needs much prayer.

I am thankful that my mom received a clean bill of health. She was concerned about possible cancer for her but no issues were detected so I know she is relieved.

My work schedule is affected because we picked the wrong dates for vacation and I still have points on my record that I expected to be removed due to an approved LOA.  I will try to check again later this evening but my status continues to remain in jeopardy and the upcoming vacation we had set up months ago might not happen.

This at church, things at work, many things not working out and falling apart.  

I partially listened to the sermon today but I was annoyed and bothered by other things that were going on.  I won't go into detail for those things either but I have decicded that I am no longer going to sing for service.  I will try to help out with things where I can, but I am not going to try to be something I am not and do things that I lack the skill have no strength to do.  I am content operating in the background and am trying to get back to that space because that way, I won't have people having such high expectations and then tossing me aside when greater and better comes along.  I attended a meeting yesterday and there were decisions made and a comment was made by the pastor which he immediately followed with the words to me, no offense. But I am offended.  I'm offended but I'll get over it.  I am not chosen for certain tasks.  I don't want it to be highlighted for everyone that I am not selected. 

People say they prayed for a pianist and I came a week later.  I didn't pray about that but they say they are certain I was an answer to their prayers.  With that, I will simply be a pianist, do what I am supposed to do and stay in my lane.   

Back to the situation with my cousin, I shared a situation in desperation searching for help and equally prayer for his situation but only one person said they would pray about the situation.  No one else responded.  No one said anything and that tends to happen.  When I am dealing with or my family is dealing with something devastating, there are crickets but there are trumpets for everyone else.  I don't know why that is, but the one thing I know is I have one good friend I can go to.  My supervisor called me and I was in the middle of dealing with my cousin's crisis.  Can you believe my supervisor laughed?  I get that people are racist and don't care but I didn't expect her to chuckle at the predicament. 

I have one good friend and I am thankful that He is my friend.  As I go through these things I am trying to help my son to see that we both have the same friend and that he needs to go to Him too.  It is a shame one cannot rely on anyone in the nuclear family, so called friends, or even church/community members who make all these pledges and vows to help those in need.  Trust in God.  People will fail you, disappoint, and abandon you.  People will discount and discard you.  They will forget you and they may even betray you.  I tried telling my son some things and he I guess was too upset to hear so he didn't want to hear any more and that's ok.  People are terrible but God is so wonderful.  I hope and pray that you strengthen your relationship with Jesus.  He really is the only one we can go to and our one and only true friend.  I don't believe in alot of things people talk about as far as relationships in this life. Those things fail and you'll end up with rope burn, rashes, bruises, and an empty fridge or some other random nonsense, but with God, you can trust Him with your entire life.  Be His friend. Spend time with Him and no matter what happens to you and to me, it must be Christ and Only Christ.  

Be blessed and go with God today :)