Cabbage

 Happy Sabbath

Not sure what to call this blog today. I had cabbage yesterday and just enjoyed some cabbage with my beyond meat burger meal today. Cabbage it is I guess.

God is good. My son is better and had recovered really in full by Sunday.  I was not able to secure a PCP appointment this week but have something I can still send him back to school with.  I was sick as a result of him coughing in my face and my illness went away by Tuesday.  

On Sunday, since I knew that we would have to remain home I decided to go ahead with a much awaited purchase and purchased a sofa with chaise, and a bunch of gifts for Christmas for my family.  I received the sofa on Wednesday and rushed to put it together and am so happy with the purchase.  My family room/home office/activity room is nearly complete.  It is very comfortable and fits the space so well and now my son and I can lay back and watch our 55" smart tv and hopefully play some video games if I can find an xbox s series or something like it on the market.  Most of the gifts arrived. I'm still waiting for my dad's boots.  I bought my mom some adidas tennis shoes and my dad will get some Sperry boots.  He is always picking at me for the shoes I buy and claiming his is better since he paid $20 for them at Walmart or some other place. But he knows those shoes don't last. If he is going to have shoes, he should have good quality shoes. I thought about timberlands but know how rough he can be with them and wanted something that would hold up weather wise, be water proof, and still look good for years to come.  The sperry's showed up and caught my eye and I personally wanted to get a pair of them. Your welcome dad.  My son has a laptop still in the amazon box. There are a bunch of other things but I will have to wait until he is out of the house before I start packaging things up properly.  My sister asked for a samsung watch that could check her blood pressure and I got that for her while we were on google duo.  

I am thankful because there was a time that all of this would not be possible.  I would have to swap money from this account to that account and look for a credit card.  I have not needed to use credit cards for any of this.  She asked and I didn't even have to look at my main checking account to see my balance before going forward with the purchase.  I am thankful that I didn'[t have to get new tires on Thursday.  I drove out I want to say Tuesday when my pressure signal came on and usually when that happens, it means there is something really wrong with a tire and I have to get new ones.  I know I have not been driving much and I got new tires not too long ago so I was confused how I needed something now.  I went to Pepboys and they told me nothing was wrong with any of the tires.  All the tires were lower and they just filled them up with air and checked for leaks.  I will be careful traveling around and if it happens again, I'll come for them. I am thankful I didn't have to put out money for that this week. 

I was sitting with my son yesterday and he started asking some hard questions.  I keep telling him when he gets to be older..18 or so, I will tell him everything.  I told him some more about life before him and things that upset him.  I probably shouldn't have told him the significance of his birthday for me, I should have held off until he was much older.  He was upset with me about that but he was more so upset with his dad and the decisions his dad decided to do. I don't believe in telling a happy doopy story.  The facts are the facts.  He was a bad actor, but I was not smart and made bad decisions too and that cannot be hidden either.  You have to learn from these bad decisions.  

I spent time cleaning out a suit case (one of many things I need to go through that is in the hall closet).  I am thankful that I was able to get space in there to put the vacuum cleaner.  As I cleaned the suitcase and looked at tags of trips long long ago, I came across calendars and a journal, and even a letter I typed up for my former employer.  What was written on those pages hurt me but I cannot erase it. I cannot throw that away.  I need those painful reminders so that I remember not to go down those roads again.  

I am peeling the layers of my history and spending time saving the good, the necessary, and throwing away the bad, like a cabbage or onion.  I spent time cleaning the guest room and changed the layout around.  I like the new layout.  I can get in the room and know where more things are.  I have more closets to go through and more things to fix.  I am in a good place right now and I have to thank the Lord for that.  If He did not intervene, I'd be homeless.  I might be childless.  I would have nothing and be nothing and possibly not be alive.  My biggest concern this week was when is the sofa arriving and oh no, the packages were left on the front porch!  My son can choose what he wants to eat and is able to have it when he wants.  He can wear what he wants.  If he is cold he can put on warm clothes or turn the heat up in the house.  He can watch tv in his bedroom and I can watch tv in the activity room.  We can feed the peacocks that come up to the patio. He can grow, he is growing up in comfort with his needs being met.  I don't have to water down milk or stretch xyz to make a meal.  I don't have to walk away from a purchase at the register because a card being declined or tell him no because I just don't have enough.  I am thankful for this period of blessing and bounty.  I don't know how much longer it will last but while I have it, I thank God for it.  I thank Him for second, third, and fourth chances to get things right.  I thank Him for the sermon today.  I am going to go check in on my son now, but yeah, just wanted to share. God is good all the time.  Never stop praising Him even in times of distress.  Don't give Him up. Never give up the faith. And eat more cabbage.  It's good for you, especially the purple kind with leeks. 

Happy Sabbath :)