Seventy Six Hours

Happy Sabbath

Today was a very nice day and it has been a good week.  Never without a challenge, but still good week.

I had  job interview on Monday and when I went, I didn’t remember what I applied for.  I was surprised the interview was at 9pm for this store.  I tried going online to the place where I applied but I was not able to view the screen which would show me what I applied for or even the days I requested. 

I was told the position was for overnight stock and I was given the impression that I had to work a minimum of four days to get accepted and although I don’t want to do four days, I accepted the position.  Those four days would equal 36 hours of pay (they might have 30 min break or something, I haven’t worked an hourly job in a long time so if that is included, that is welcome because I am going to be tired). 

That would bring my weekly total to 76 hours weekly, but first I have to complete orientation and then I would be given my schedule to start. The interviewer told me that I could hold off on doing orientation if the days they offer for the orientation don’t work out but as soon as I finish it, I’m expected to report to work.  So that means I have been trying my best to schedule my Tuesday people early and my Thursday people late.  I think I will still go to the office on Mondays and Wednesdays early but I have less time to spend for myself and no time for mistakes.  I asked for Saturday nights, Monday nights, Wednesday nights, and Thursday nights.  I think the Wednesday through Friday is going to be the hardest since I know I have trouble falling asleep when I need to sleep and although I schedule my Friday meetings early, I have to finish well ahead before my son gets home because I am going to crash. 

I’ve done three jobs before but that was over 10-15 years ago.  I ended up staying at the mall in the cold food court trying to but not able to sleep overnight.  I stayed there until my next job at 8 something the next morning, plowed through that and went home to crash.  Even prior to my current job, I worked a full time job with back to back doubles for overnight and a part time job of 30 something hours during the day and evenings. Even if I can hold up for a short while, the extra funds will make a tremendous difference.  I want those funds to pay for the fence in the front of my house and perhaps the side so I at least get a little more privacy.  I need the funds for auto insurance.  I am on my dad’s policy and have not been able to pay him. If I don’t come up with money I will be cut off by August and I need to carry my fair share of weight.  I need funds to be there for car repair.  My car is at it’s last and I don’t have money to fix it if it breaks down tomorrow.  I need to fix the heating system, build up my savings, get a new computer, fix the handle that broke what, last week, on the storm door.  There are so many things.  I want to be faithful to the Lord and He knows what is happening with me and I’m not happy about decisions I have and continue to make. 

I had thought that perhaps something was on my background report that was what prevented me from getting the email/call for the employer I applied to twice last year but my report for this latest application, thank the Lord came back clear with a message that I am eligible for hire. So now I wait, for the orientation date.  My son will not have the birthday party I dreamed for him.  I don’t want to have it at my house for one because it’s small, two, the heating system is wonky and I don’t want a bunch of people in my home knowing that, three, the lighting needs to be fixed because a wire wants to act fried, and four, I don’t have the money to do a party.  I bought him a scooter and paid a little more for one that could grow with him.  I was hoping to take him to this indoor amusement park but they are closed on Thursdays and the skating place also closes before he gets out of school, so I am considering a trampoline park that has an arcade for him to enjoy.  It would be just him and I.  I wanted to do a party at church but our conference is having trainings today, next week, into February so people will not stay around church….I bought the cake mix and icing to make cupcakes.  I intend to make him a cake.  I think I might try making a small cake for the house and for Sabbath,  will bring extra balloons and decorations to church so there can still be a celebration.  I will try. 

There is so much to do and so little to work with but I am going to try to calm my worried heart and trust in the Lord.  He brought me this far and He clearly is bringing my son a far way.  You should have heard the prayer he prayed today for the church and I didn’t talk to him about it or prompt him in anyway.  God is working on my family and I am thankful for that.