I have never been a person to be 100% comfortable with
waiting. This is something I still
have to work on. Patience.
I want to see results.
I want to know that I am headed in the right direction and I want to be
assured things will be okay.
Before I made some bad decisions a few years ago, I considered myself in
a good head space and trusted that I would be directed daily by God.
There are many big differences now and those are challenges
I have for myself to address with Jesus’ help.
Patience.
I made a decision to leave a long time semi secure excellent
benefit providing job for a job that paid less (with minimal to zero benefits) to have peace of mind and
gain experience in my target field.
I was filled with anxiety, frustration, and a bunch of other
issues. I left the job right after
I did another job interview. I
don’t remember what I interviewed for, but I didn’t get that job. I did have the job that paid less
though, and God had the situation in control because He made it so that I was
given a full time work schedule right on time.
Prior to getting that job, I was in the hole deep because of
the person I allowed to be in my life to wreck my life. I needed money and had no idea where it
was going to come from. God sent a
check in the form of a refund from a place I never expected it and it was the
exact amount I needed for a bill that I had to pay in a few days. I never was late on any bill because of
a lack of money. God provided
everything.
Today I received a call for an interview with a job that
pays over 10k more than my current gig.
This is the second job call I’ve received since graduating with my
master degree. The first call was
for a job that is about 8k more, but I haven’t heard anything back from their
office about coming in for the official interview, despite the information I
sent to them. I was
disappointed. My other coworker
who has less school credentials than I do quit yesterday to start her new job
elsewhere. The timing could not be
more perfect as she stood to lose some of her hours and me being a lead staff
results in moving other people’s schedules around mine. And see, I thought my hours would be
cut too. God did not allow it to
be so.
In thinking about patience, I remember when I tried applying
to admission into my school program.
I had a number of things happen prior to admission that were a “bit
ridiculous”.
I paid the fees and sent the transcripts for them to not
arrive or sit on other people’s desks (they could just walk next door and get
them, but I had to pay for them to do even that). I repaid the fees for transcripts and express mail. Prior to
printing out certain forms needed for my application, I used computers in
different places throughout the city that I lived in. I had no issues before then and having knowledge on how to
code, disassemble cpus, and experience with multiple computer programs, I
consider myself fairly computer savy.
Even the night before, I was at home and viewed a document in pdf form on
my computer. Suddenly, the next
day, my computer for some reason could not read the file. I kept trying and trying and it
wouldn’t open. I left and went to
a neighborhood library and I used their computer. I had to send this document today as it was the deadline for
all applications. I sent this form
months before, but of course satan determined for it to be lost. At their library, it wouldn’t open
there either. I lost my expensive bus pass along the way and had to ask my
mother to deposit some funds into my bank account so that I could buy a pass to
get to another part of the city to complete this task. She just happened to be on lunch break
and her office was right across the street from her bank and my bank, so she
was able to do it. I took
the bus to a school library (very high tech and up-to-date with the latest
software and programs to open ANY file), yet, it could not open this file or
print it. So much resistance made
me frustrated, but I refused to give up. If I told you what city this was and where I walked and bussed
to, you would gasp because it’s a big area. With a last resort, I went to my city’s oldest library that
was not as high tech as this university center, and tried on their
computer. I was finally able to
open the same pdf file I viewed last night and printed for 25 cents per
page. I had to resend this
document before 4:30pm. I was able
to get to a Fedex and fax what I had to the office that lost my information.
I thought I would not be able to get into the program
because of all the strange issues that surrounded me trying to get my
application into the school’s hands.
About a month passed and around that time school was to start the next
week. I had prayed to God for a
sign to let me know if I would be able to start that program. I used to look at dog shows and I
always liked the whippet. I asked
God to show me the word whippet or an actual whippet if He would help me get
into the program.
First I checked my voice mail after taking a nap in
preparation for my job. I didn’t
understand what the lady was saying over the phone and thought it was a
reminder call for a doctor’s appointment I did not schedule. I then realized it was a call from the
school department to congratulate me on my admission into their program.
It was the first time I recall every screaming for joy and I
jumped out of bed, or on the bed rather. I called my mom and told her, but she
said that I shouldn’t give my hopes up and that I should wait for an official
acceptance letter to make sure they were telling me the truth. I went to the internet on my phone
after checking my email and other things and clicked on something with Tyra
Banks. When the page loaded, the
title had the words, “Don’t be such a shy whippet”.
I didn’t need to call them or wait for any official letter
for confirmation. God gave it then
and there.
There are many other things God has done that required my
patience. I’ll talk about some
more of those things in the next post.
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