Missed

I missed it again. I get so busy on Sabbath and I actually did think about getting on here at lunch time but forgot. I don't like that. 

I am home and enjoying my time at home. I'm not only home after scheduling PTO time for the rest of 2020 with my main job but I am on an unexpected leave of absence from my part time. 

Saturday night I went to work and about 2 hrs before the end of my shift, I took one of my last mints. I'm a stickler for gloves and do not remove my mask at work. People don't even know what I look like...at least those who came after April or May. I don't know what happened. It may have been the air I breathed in the moment I took that mint. It could be what has been going on with my tooth but I left work not feeling too great. I wanted to finish shopping for my parents and sis so I went to a nice store and had hesitated in the parking lot. I went in, did my shopping and came out to go pick up my son. By the time I made it to their house, I had a sore throat for sure. I had hoped it would go away but it lasted all through Sunday and all Monday. Monday, I had to answer yes to one of the questions on the questionnaire. I have a sore throat. I also felt like I was getting an ear infection again and was not certain if I had a fever. The pain was going down into my chest area...a weird pain like when I felt like pneumonia was coming on. 

I called out of work and requested a leave of absence so I could get a COVID test. I felt fine by Tuesday but to my surprise, I couldn't get a test as easily as I had done before. I ended up getting a test on December 23rd in a town 45 minutes away from me. Everyone was booked and after I went there, they told me a delay was expected due to Christmas. 

So it is Sunday night. I'm sti waiting for my results. I requested my leave be extended to January 2nd because I got a message saying it might be mid week and I need to know ahead of time to inform work. 

I am happy to be home. I pulled a muscle around my shoulder blade and I need to rest anyway. Christmas was canceled for my son. He did ask much wrong each day, he just took things too far. I am saving his gift for his birthday which is in less than a month. I had wanted to do a tubing/ski trip but I was not seeing alot of safe options for us. It's probably best that I save his gift until then. But if he misbehaves again as badly as he did these past few weeks, this gift will be his 2021 Christmas gift. He needs to learn his lesson and he will learn it hard. 

The last Sabbath of the year was a trying one. We were to have youth on but leadership failed in preparing the youth. The most important thing you need to be sure of is if they want to participate. You can't just put people's names down and expect them to come through. I believe that's what happened and it was a sorry sight. We have a lot of work to do as a church. We have alot of work to do as parents. People are going through tough times right now and they are cracking. People's realness was heard church wide on zoom and they didn't realize the microphone was on. There is a lot to do. I'm still down for it. I will try to do what I can and let the Lord lead with the rest. I was uncertain if the youth were going to sing a song and I was ready to play something if they didn't come on the line as they didn't before. I turned to the song When He Cometh and to my surprise, out of all the songs they could select in the hymnal, that was the one they chose to sing for Special music. 

It's just a reminder that God is still in control. He is giving us direction. Are we listening? 

May we have better ears to hear in 2021, if it is the Lord's will that we should see it.

God bless you and Happy New Year to you 💗.

Angels

Good evening,

I have to come on here with some really great news.So what was happening with my church sister, she has cancer and yesterday, she was on the zoom for church but then later I heard she was in the hospital and her lungs were failing her. I did not know she was supposed to get a treatment (not for covid). The church prayed for her immediately after service ended and someone said that the Lord could send His angels to her room. Michael. Gabriel. There was much prayer on that line. Even little children prayed on the line.

I attended a board meeting this afternoon and sis broke the good news. Her lungs were much better and she has an appetite again. Not only that. My dear sis said to the one giving the report that when she opened her eyes, she noticed a man in white leaving her room that she believed was one of the Lord's angels.  We prayed for angel's to guide and direct the hands of those who were treating her.  I don't often think about the angelic help the Lord is able to send but just hearing this, my goodness, God is soooooo GOOD! We were not certain if she were going to make it through another night. She is such a kind soul, such a sweet heart and she has so much to give and I am thankful that not only is she alive, but she could share her experience of the Lord's blessing and immediate help with us. God is still on the throne. When we need Him, He is always there. Help is on the way and the only One who can help us is Jesus, our Lord. I thank Him and praise Him for hearing and answering the prayers of the church.

Even if you are by yourself. Even though they say where two or more are gathered.

He hears, He answers, He saves, He loves, He is not distant. He is here. Trust Him and go to Him and He will bring you through. 

Please pray for my sis who fell and was severely injured. Please pray for my other sis who is afraid for her health as she has a number of known and unknown issues going on. And please pray for me. I started getting a sore throat this morning after taking my gloves off and eating a mint.  I was careful today but something is wrong. I know I have issues with my teeth so it could quite possibly be that. I pray it resolves itself. I need to work and have my son to take care of and aside from my parents, he only has me.

Please pray.

Thank you💗

What He Designed

 Happy Sabbath

I'm glad to be on here while it is still Sabbath and am thankful for a safe and productive week at work and with my church.  Alot happened today that I am still trying to process.  Some good and some, I'm not so happy with. But God still is to be praised and I thank Him that I was able to get through it and for things to not be an utter disaster.

I know God has a plan for me.  I don't know what that plan is but I am trying to go with the flow and make my self available and I am being placed in places that are definitely outside my comfort zone.  I know what I am able to do but I don't know the full picture of what God designed.  Today was music day for my church and I am the music coordinator.  I had several...SEVERAL hiccups that I did my best to prevent by planning early and trying to make sure everyone participating knew what they were asked to do, yet of course, people are people and things didn't go exactly the way I had planned.  

I like, seek out, and prefer background roles.  I don't want to be a leader.  I don't think it's wrong for me to say that.  I will step in to help things move along if someone is missing but I absolutely don't like having to do that and avoid placing myself in situations where I am thrown all that responsibility and being the public face for it.  I wrote the program today and I made sure to not write myself in it, however, I ended up being in it throughout parts I didn't anticipate.  Parts that are unwritten and people still go with who are leaders.  Again, I'm not a leader so I don't know to look for those things.  

I won't say if I will be in this role next year, but if so, I hope things will run better.  I will have to give people more weeks of preparation and really put my foot down on what gets in the program.  There is much I could complain about but I'm going to stop that right here.  I want this to be a positive post.

I am thankful that Music day was able to happen.  I am thankful that even though I never intended to do these things, God prepared me with the items to speak and sing when other things fell through.  I am thankful that some of my family was able to join the stream and hope they were blessed by what they heard and saw today.  I'm thankful for the people who did listen and prepared themselves accordingly. The people who helped pull this off.  It may not have been what I designed exactly but God has a bigger and better design for all of us.  

In one week's time three of my church sisters were attacked. One was in the hospital and came out strong. The other one was in the hospital later in the week and came out strong. The third one went in today and I pray that she will come out strong. She has cancer and has been fighting this for some time but today her lungs were failing her.  She is young and has a beautiful family and I pray that she will come out strong.  I pray it is not Covid that is causing the issue with her lungs.  Please keep her in your prayers tonight and tomorrow if you are reading. I will give an update when I have it by next week.  

Happy Sabbath

Busy

It's definitely no longer Sabbath but 12:03am on Sunday morning. I am finding that I an busier than usual on Sabbath. Not sure how I feel about that. 

I will say that God is good. I was thrown into something yesterday that I didn't expect but the Lord made it work out. I have social anxiety and despite my line of work, I still do my job and get through it. There are two things I hate: looking stupid and not being prepared. I am the music coordinator of my church and assist with children's sabbath school. As far as I knew, I was setting up the music for the service and heard the theme given to me by other leaders but never expected I would be left to direct the entire service on a whim. 

The clerk is responsible for sending out the program and she requires that this information is sent on Thursday and no later because she wants to rest on Sabbath and enjoy the service. I sent my items to her by Wednesday because I don't like doing last minute things. I had a practice with my children Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday  but at not point was anything mentioned that I would be leading out the service. 

I ended up writing up a program, calling everyone 1-2 hrs before to assign parts and make sure everyone was ok witth their task. I also ended up having to sing for service again which I try to avoid because I don't like my voice or consider myself a singer and I purpose to play piano to cover for my lack of singing abilities. 

As uncomfortable as it was, it still worked out beautifully with the children. I have other issues going on from electricity going out and needing wires fixed to my son's messed up attendance record. He was there every day yet they still marked him five days absent. 

Alot is going on but Jesus is still on the throne. He helped me through today despite my nerves and I thank and praise Him for that as well as other things at work last week. 

Happy Sabbath

 Happy Sabbath and December 2020

I can't believe I forgot to post for November.  As I said in the last post, God has been good and there has been much happening.  My church has taken a big step in it's growth and I have been getting more involved so that is the main thing that caused me to forget.  It's just been busy but a good busy.

I had an error the week of thanksgiving and sinned. I regretted my decision and soon after the enemy was on the attack.  I asked the Lord for forgiveness and a change of mind and heart and I know the Lord heard my prayers.  I also started something called the Jericho prayer, two period of this even.  I want to say something happened before I even started all that.  I do a terrible job of writing down when things like this happen so I will try my best to recall the day.  I believe it was probably Sunday, if not Monday.  Sunday, I had finished work at my part time, picked up my son and headed home.  Once home, I cleaned up a little and decided it best to lay down for a nap. I slept until around 2pm that day but stayed in my bed.  I was wide awake this time.  The last time this happened, it woke me up from my sleep late at night.  I was awake in my bed and my phone went off and I have this ring tone with this song called Purpose by Spensha Baker.  If you have not heard it, when you do, you will want it as your ring tone too.  My phone starts ringing and I know that shouldn't be because I always have my ringer on silent and the only thing that should make any noise is my alarm clock, which does not have that song assigned.  I hear it and pick up my phone to look and see who is calling but the screen is not activated.  It is just showing my screen saver which I have saved as a clock and calendar with some notifications at the bottom. I have an android.  The phone rang for a bit and then stopped.  I knew that if I looked through the phone, it would show no one called.  

I said this had happened before and it woke me out of my sleep.  I was confused at that time and asked my son if he had heard it but he did not.  It's like the time I was at my parents home and my younger sister was also living there too at the time.  My parents were not home and I was in my room sleeping  My little sister was in her room and suddenly, I heard the door bell. The door bell sounded strange like the battery was dying or something.  I woke up to the weird sounding door bell and went out to see my older sister had come over and wanted to drop something off.  I took the item she had and she left and when I closed up the door, my little sister came out the door wondering what I was doing.  I told her big sis came by and she called me a liar and said she was awake the entire time and would have heard the door bell or known someone pulled up.  Her room faces the driveway and the door bell device is on the ceiling below her bedroom, yet she didn't hear it.  I pointed out what big sis dropped off, but she didn't believe me and claimed I put it there.  I had to have big sis tell her that she stopped by, but she simply didn't believe it.  There was a lesson in that and I know there was a reason for the call I received this week.  It was in the verse I saw this week which says, Come, let us bow down in worship. "Come, let us worship and bow down. Let us kneel before the Lord our maker, Psalm 95:6.  That was my verse for the day I got that phone call which I would say was from God.

When I make mistakes and I don't know it, God has a way of bringing me back to correct them.  Like for instance, I had a service note error I didn't realize.  If it were up to me, I would not bother going back into a specific note but I felt the need to go to a note for one thing and came across the error that I had opportunity to correct.  My supervisor has hawk eyes and would pick up on errors instantly so for me to go week after week being able to correct issues that I overlook but I'm drawn back to, I give that to God and give Him thanks for it.  

God is good.  He is holding everything together when I don't know how.  I am encouraged to do more and live better.  I contacted my church children and decided today that we need to have bi-weekly meetings to practice because we need a children's choir. I have always wanted to be in a choir and these things start up and die down quickly. My strength is in piano and other instruments. I only have a music minor and didn't go on to finish getting my music education degree but I have enough skills useful to help get a choir going and am thankful for that sight singing class I had in undergrad. Nov 28th, I ended up singing for church and that was something I thought I would never ever do. I am open and allowing the Lord to use me as He sees fit.  I hope to continue with my posts and share more things that happen during my week.